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Ideally, essentially, crucially, optimistically
Change, change, change

I’m two steps behind in memories, one step ahead of myself
Jumped through hoops, landed on conclusion
Quenched my thirst on waters from deepest wishing wells

Wishing you wouldn’t have insinuated, Ma
I lied to myself in vain, convincing my better judgment that Pops ain’t the man he always has been
See, they all used to say I was like him
But with grit teeth, I’d bear in an instant, I am not what he is
Notions sold to myself, no interest paid because I had none in the first place
Pops, away, even more often than his mini-vacays from Mom
Gallivanting and painting all his inner habits in his favorite shade of red
Sick, spitting, these lies that I can only try to filter through telephone lines
Says I’m missed, yet funny cuz I couldn’t tell from
Missed calls, emails mis-read, not read, I am seeing red
Vision blurred, no words, heard…I am done
Used to this separation anxiety that molds itself into apathetic ignorance
I’m in bliss only because I force to forget

I’ll chase away the ghosts of our past, together we made them
Pops, uneasy for mistake riddled decision making
I, son…of the best sales pitch that spoke in the language of broken promise
Effort, shown, appreciated, known
I cried one night just in remembrance of how hard you made it all work
I am you in that light
But still, ill will never disguised itself greater that in the cloak of your false concern
My money isn’t my well being
But thanks for asking

Ideally, essentially, crucially, optimistically
Change, change, change

I’m two steps behind in memories, one step ahead of myself
Jumped through hoops, landed on conclusion
Quenched my thirst on waters from deepest wishing wells……..

Deep piece Rich
Liked how you finished it liek you started it made me think you had more to say...


Keep doin your thing man